sharks and dangers;

: St. Catharines Psychiatric Help Line, this is Nancy.

I'm sure this is all gonna sound really ridiculous and... I don't exactly expect anyone to believe all this. For the last little while I've been kinda keeping correspondance with my sanity, and� I really get the feeling that I�m starting to lose interest in the letter writing process. The pieces of the letters, they just get progressively shorter and shorter until it�s not even a reply. I... The whole thing makes me really nervous. I just wish I could show you what a huge problem this is.

As life hangs beside me
I gather all that I can
You were never one for confrontation
But now it lies all in your hands.

Your hands...

I kind of have this... Really terrible habit of asking myself all these stupid questions, right? Like what if� what if there's a spot on my body that I can touch to keep my heart from beating? or like what if, what if theres this... stray bullet out there that�s gonna come through my window and take me out? like what if... what if theres this huge unstoppable comet that�s just gonna like, destroy the earth and all of us? Like what... what if that�s happening right now? How can I avoid all these questions if I don't have that? Like, who is gonna be here? Why... who is gonna be there... in the hospital? Who is gonna tell me that all this is bullshit... its a dream? Just a dream.This is not a joke. And... i'll never sleep.

Who will be there to tell
Me how stupid I am?

Anxiety chokes me like razor wire

Life on standby.

sharks and dangers;